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Erika Jayne gets emotional over moving forward in her singing career without the safety net of her estranged husband Tom Girardi and his money. Plus, the RHOBH star opens up about never getting closure from her co-stars or Tom.
In a preview for Wednesday’s all-new episode of the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, Erika Jayne has an emotional sitdown with her therapist where she acknowledges that she will never get the closure she needs from her estranged husband, Tom Girardi.
On top of that, Erika admits that she is nervous about her upcoming Las Vegas residency and not having Tom’s millions as a safety net anymore.
The Pretty Mess singer also says her feelings were hurt when the women of RHOBH were “quiet as church mice” when she announced that she won the appeal over her $750k diamond earrings.
“[A lot of] good stuff. Like everything that I didn’t think was possible. It’s happening,” Erika Jayne said when asked by her therapist how everything is going for her.
“It feels like yesterday, you were saying to me, like, my life is over. In one fell swoop, you lost your marriage, you lost your financial security, you lost friends,” Erika’s therapist replies, noting that she was “hopeless” and “afraid” of her future not too long ago.
Erika Jayne agrees, pointing out: “For quite a while, and now I have this residency in Las Vegas. So it’s good pressure now. And I have a lot of people that I need to make proud.”
“And who have invested a lot of money in you,” the therapist notes. “Your used to having your husband and unlimited funds and resources. It’s easy to forget that Tom did support you before things go really bad.”
This is when EJ admits she’s afraid of disappointing her investors and fans because she’s used to having Tom’s unlimited funds behind her in case anything went wrong.
“I really want to surpass any sort of expectation but I also am a little afraid to be quite honest with you,” Erika confesses, adding, “Good or bad that man encouraged me to be here.”
“You can take risks when you have someone in your corner. Tom was the saftey net so I could walk on the high wire,” Erika Jayne continues in her confessional. “Now, I no longer have the net. It can get really scary out here. Don’t look down. Just keep going forward.”
The RHOBH star then switches the conversation to her legal issues, telling her therapist that “My legal things are quiet. Not completely wrapped up but better.”
“I won a nice appeal the other day,” she says before a flashback of her telling the RHOBH cast the legal victory plays across the screen.
Erika admits she was upset that the ladies didn’t celebrate her win and instead acted as “quiet as church mice.”
“We went on this girl’s trip to Spain, and Sutton was there to release her friend’s ashes, and she asked us what we are releasing and what we are letting go of here. It comes my turn and, of course, I’m mad. I’m here to let this go in representation of all the hurt that I feel many of you have contributed to,” she explains, admitting that she has “unresolved” feelings.
However, she adds: “I want to release what I have gone through with these women in the past. But at the same time, I think I’ll never get what I’m looking for.”
Check out the preview below!
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills airs on Wednesdays at 8 p.m. ET on Bravo.
