Yolanda Hadid seemed to have it all – a gorgeous Malibu mansion, a closet to die for, a wonderful marriage, three beautiful children, and reality TV fame but what she didn’t have was perfect health.
Long before fans knew about Yolanda’s battle with Lyme Disease the former Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star suffered in silence.
In her new memoir, Believe Me: My Battle With the Invisibility of Lyme Disease, Yolanda opens up about how Lyme Disease took over every facet of her life and left a path of destruction in its wake.
But what we didn’t know was that she had just been diagnosed with Lyme Disease and that it was already wreaking havoc on her marriage and life.
Yolanda reveals that symptoms like joint pain, exhaustion, insomnia, and anxiety plagued her making everyday tasks difficult. As a result, her relationship with her “love” David changed tremendously.
“All of a sudden all of the things we shared, all of the things we used to love to do together, go for walks in the morning, having a studio in the house and blasting music all day, having dinner parties, that all shut down,” she says. “I couldn’t participate in that life anymore.”
Despite her attempts, Yolanda could no longer keep up with her former lifestyle of traveling, cooking, horse back riding, lemon picking, and hosting dinner parties.
“I’m starting to feel that David is unhappy with the fact that I can’t be by his side the way that I used to be,” she writes in her memoir. “I try to make light of it and joke that he married a lemon. It’s sad but true. I went from being the funny girlfriend who was up for anything and had endless energy to the wife who is too sick to be by his side.”
“He lost his wingman, his partner in crime, and I feel as if he’s starting to get impatient with my recovery. I understand that even brief periods of illness can strain important relationships in your life. A chronic condition like mine, one that has consumed years of our lives, poses enormous challenges.”
David and Yolanda announced their divorce in December of 2015, and many speculated that Yolanda’s health issues caused their split.
Despite dealing with heartbreak in the midst of her ongoing health crisis, Yolanda made it clear she had no hard feelings toward David.
“I had a great seven year run with him, and I will always hold that I high regards and have gratitude for that time together,” she says. “If he didn’t leave the marriage I would not be where I am today.”
Meanwhile, Yolanda also reveals that during the height of her battle with Lyme Disease she contemplated suicide. The former RHOBH star says that while on vacation in Flordia with David she could no longer take the pain and considered ending it all.
“I take off my clothes and slip into the dark blue ocean, which is cool and comforting,” she writes in her book. “The waves gently wash over my naked body, and I can feel the current tugging at me. Tears pour out of my eyes, roll across my cheeks, and meld with the salt water as I try to still my mind to become one with the water’s ebb and flow.”
“God please just take me away in a wave. I can’t live like this one more day. Please carry my body away. I just want to disappear,” she writes. “My next thought is a clear image of my three children. It shifts my consciousness immediately, and that’s the only thing that keeps me from letting myself drift and drown.”
Now, Yolanda says she is in what “feels like remission” and is focused on her recovery and finding a cure.
“As difficult as these past five years have been, I am so grateful that this journey has led me to living in the light,” she says. “I have had it all and lost it all, only to realize that less is more, money can’t buy you health or happiness, and one day at a time is good enough.”
My heart breaks for Yolanda. I can’t imagine dealing with such an unimaginable amount of pain on a day to day basis. I see people in my life deal with invisible illnesses, and it is devastating to watch. I can’t wait to read the rest of Yolanda’s book and learn more about her journey.
Are you excited for Yolanda’s upcoming memoir? Will you be picking up Yolanda’s book? Are you surprised Yolanda’s battle with Lyme Disease affected her marriage, David? Can you believe Yolanda contemplated suicide? Would Yolanda and David still be together if Yolanda never got ill?
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