We got to know Erika Jayne on season 6, but on season 7 Erika’s admitted that she is really a shy, quiet person who has anxieties and insecurities; yet she used them to create something beautiful, Erika Jayne!
“I had everything that you want. Every material object. Everything. But inside my core I still wasn’t satisfied,” she confessed to Nightline.
Elaborating, “I felt like I was just not being myself. I felt like I was hiding. I was hiding from me. I was hiding from sparkle and magic and fun and fearlessness and music and dance and creative magic… I just knew I had feelings. I knew I had thoughts. I knew I had things I wanted to say. Listen, I’m rebellious. Okay? I always have been. And Erika Jayne is a little bit of a rebel too.”
Continuing, “It wasn’t like overnight I became this like fearless badass that said, ‘You know what? I’m going to just jump out here on faith and do whatever I want.’ That was a slow process. But what can I say? It’s what I created,” Erika described.
Erika Girardi’s insecurities are similar to a lot of women’s, and as an introvert this was her way of facing them. “I think that I suffer from what every woman suffers from, which is never being pretty enough, never being thin enough, never being enough, never being smart enough. You can really whip yourself into a frenzy about all the things you that don’t have instead of all the great things that you do have,” she spilled.
“I just don’t see those limitations in life. Like someone said to me, ‘How do you feel about dancing against Simone Biles, she’s 20-years-old [on Dancing with the Stars? I said, ‘I don’t want to be 20-years-old anymore. I’m happy being 45. Women my age are valuable, and we have a lot more life to live and so much more to give. All of those old rules, they’ve been broken. Yeah. That’s old way of thinking,” Erika wrapped.
I think what Erika Girardi is way different than any of us originally thought, and although Dorit did shame her over panty-gate, it was a reason for her to really open up about the person behind the pop star!
It was refreshing to hear this coming from a housewife, and I’m always rooting for Erika; I think things got very out of hand in Hong Kong, but this is RHOBH and we were bound to see Erika snap sooner or later.
I guess this is what she really means when she said, “I think every woman has a little Erika Jayne inside of her she’s just dying to get out!”